Every morning after I've visited all my favorite blogs and web comics I type those four characters into my browser's navigation bar and stop at a loss.
I lightly tap the keys and think to myself: "What else is out there?" "What was it I wanted to look up?" "Is it worth finding out?" "What would it cost?" I feel like there's some sort of adventure just waiting for me – a sexy roller coaster of a ride culminating in a discovery that will change the world for the better and put my name in the history books.
The reality is that I wasted the years of my prime fighting insanity. Now that I'm approaching middle age most of my remaining life has been assigned to the obligations I've undertaken. I have no fifth character to type. Just roles to play and lines to say to keep the audience happy.
I don't know if I'm happy or unhappy with things as they are. For me, survival isn't enough of a reason to participate in society. Society doesn't have any reason to see that I live. If I did not have my obligations I'd probably be dead.
About Me
- R.
- I'm a househusband and stay-at-home dad. What I need are more attentions of the amorous variety. What I get are more entries on the honey-do list. I take stuff apart to see how it works. Sometimes it still works when I put it all back together again.
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